House Party Jersey Style

Back in Iowa, I frequently had game nights over at my apartment. It was a comfortable place for my friends to get together, laugh, joke, be competitive, and have good time, without getting retard drunk. But here in New Jersey/New York, drinking is a very social/daily thing. It seems every time I get together with my friends in New York, there is drinking involved, and I'm not a big drinker.

So when my friends came over last night for tacos and games, drinking games were the games of choice, instead of board games (like we usually did). So we started out eating tacos, then played DrinkMaster. Shortly after this, Tom (my date from Wednesday) and I felt bad because this is only the SECOND time we've met and now he was meeting my friends, who were drunk. He seemed to adjust nicely. But entire time, it was "embarrass Nicole game". Justin and Alex kept referring to wet wets and vag juice, which cracked me up and embarrassed me at the same time. Then we went on to play The Game of Things which I love. But for one of the questions, "What would improve your sex life?" Justin wrote "Nicole in my attic naked". So then that became the running joke. LOL It was fine, I was slightly tipsy and I thought it was hilarious.

After that, Justin really wanted to do the Ouija board, so most of us sat on the floor to do that, but nothing happened (obviously) because we were giving off negative vibes. So then Justin wanted to watch PARANORMAL ACTIVITY but Sarah was too afraid and thought that would scare her too badly so her, Dan, Alex, and Carolyn decided to play Highs and Lows... After being pretty toasted, while Justin, Tom, and I looked up creepy stuff online. LOL Shortly after Tom had to leave because he worked the next morning, the vomiting started. As I was saying goodbye to Tom, Carolyn was the one to drink the community drink or whatever, and that put her over. So when I went to get the puke bowl, she had already vomited on the table cloth. So we took that way and I rinsed it off in my shower the best I could. When I came back Carolyn didn't want the bowl but she was still really sick looking, and I happened to slide the bowl right under her head RIGHT as she was puking! I couldn't have timed that any better. The next hour or so was trying to figure out if she was asleep or done vomiting. We eventually was able to move her from the dinning room table to a rolling chair, so we could move her to the couch slowly... Well Dan wanted to help, but his idea was moving Carolyn, while she was nauseous, was doing it quickly and not smooth... So as soon as I moved Carolyn to the couch she vomited again. Thank you Dan. After I emptied the vomit bowl for the fourth time, she had passed out on the couch, while Dan was snoring on the floor and Sarah was sleep in the couch.

So that was my exciting first house party. Vomiting and making fun of Nicole all night. Gotta love my friends.

NOW you're interested?

Today I had two interviews: 1 for an assistant position to the co-owner of a talent agency, and the other for Red Lobster. LOL I went to the Assistant position first because it was the first job interview I got in my field that paid! I was excited! So I went in and met with the HR director, who was intense and asked questions very quickly, which made me respond quickly. LOL It was like:

Him: "What is your strongest attribute?"

Me: "I'm organized."

Him: "What do you look for in a boss."

Me: "Someone who can give positive feed back and not criticize all the time."

I felt like I was filling out a questionnaire! It was funny to me. So I must have passed his round of the interview, because he handed me over to a past assistant, who was not a junior agent. She told me to expect as Jon's assistant. He warned me that he was very intense (and I'm thinking, "More intense than rapid fire over here?") and that he was constantly busy because he is in charge of promo work and voice overs so he is constantly booking people and it's a very fast paced job. She said she was his assistant for a year but it felt like 10 years but it flew by so fast... What the heck does THAT mean? But she also said that he is the best person to learn the business from and if you work with him, you can do anything... So that seemed slightly ominous and I admitted that the position scared me a little. LOL She said that a thick skin was needed for the job, and honestly, I don't know if I have that, but what a better way to learn that having to grow it immediately?

After I talked to her, I talked to another past assistant who was now the other co-owner's assistant, and she said that Jon was intense and put on a front, but was a actually a big softie and respected people who stuck up for themselves. She said that she had called him out a few times about being rude and that an earlier assist actually got in his face a couple of times, but her and him are now really close and she is actually heading up the LA branch that they just opened! I just can't imagine myself "yelling" at my boss... It's the Midwest mentality I suppose.

So then I had to rush to my interview in Secaucus for Red Lobster. I get there after it took me FOREVER to get out of the City and I find out that the position had already been filled... The assistant manager came and told me that they expected me yesterday. I told her that I called on MONDAY and had my interview rescheduled to today because I couldn't make it yesterday because of my other job. She asked who I spoke to (LIKE I WOULD REMEMBER) because they never got the message... UGH! WAY TO GO STUPID HOSTESS!!! When I called on Monday, I asked if I could come in that day for the interview since I couldn't make it Wednesday. She then tells me that he has a meeting the next day... Okay. I asked to reschedule for TODAY. So then she reschedules me for Thursday but doesn't tell anyone! I hate her whoever she is.

So now I don't have any second job prospects and one possible scary assistant position that I won't know if I received for another week or 2. LOL Then I received an email about another talent agent assistant position that is part time at a small firm. So, I may have an interview with them soon. I want an income. I NEED an income.

So Many Options...

I never thought having TOO many opportunities would be a problem, but it is! When I first started applying for internships, I applied to pretty much anything dealing with the industry and got a couple offers. I first got offered an internship with a movie trailer company. It's a small business called Zealot Productions, and I was super excited because I always wanted to do movie trailers but I had no idea how to go about it! But the current intern didn't know when his last day was, so he was going to call me about that.

Meanwhile, I got an internship with HGTV as a set intern (or free PA) on Dear Genevieve, but I ended up doing office work the first two weeks because they weren't in production yet. I don't mind office work, but I just didn't really like it there. Several times they sent me out on errands without giving me enough petty cash to cover the costs, so that irritated me. The "last straw" came after a long day and they sent me to the post office... at 5:15pm... to mail 20 certified letters... and I was suppose to get off at 6pm. Well, as we all know, most post offices aren't open after 5p so I had to go to one of the few in Manhattan that was, which was 20 blocks away. When I get there there is a little bit of a line so I had to wait about 15 minutes because there were only 3 people working. So I get up there, only to be told that I have to fill out 20 little slips of paper to send certified mail. So I get OUT of line and go fill out 20 slips of paper for these envelopes. I turn around to get back in line and the line is half away across the building, and this is a HUGE building! I didn't get up to the counter until 6:45p, and then the clerk had computer problems before having to scan and weigh each letter individually. Turns out certified mail costs $3.24 a letter... I was given $26 for 20 letters... If you do the math, you can see that I wasn't given NEARLY enough money to cover the costs, so I had to put it on my credit card. (The total was around $64) I didn't get out of the post office until 7:15p and they wanted me to come BACK to the office afterwards to drop off the slips. So I called the office and no one picked up, so I assumed that they left and caught dinner with a friend. They called me at 7:30p asking if I was coming back still... Needless to say, I got reimbursed for my money the next day, then quit the following.

But I had another internship lined up with Paladino Casting. It's a small casting agency and since I'm interested in casting, and they hire interns as freelance once they're internship is done, I took that position in hopes of getting a job out of it.

Meanwhile, Zealot called me back and asked me to begin working next week.

PROBLEM: 1. These internships are non-paid, so I need a paying job. So I applied at Red Lobster in Secausus, NJ and since the assistant manager is from Iowa, I got an immediate interview! YAY I go back for an interview with the manager next week. =) But I need to work about 20-30 hours a week there, which means I need to give them 4 days of availability, but I am working 4 days a week on the internships... 2. I have received a few calls about interning at a talent agency, WHICH I REALLY WANT TO DO! And there is one that has the possibility of turning into an assistant position, so I of course want to work there... which means I would have to say goodbye to the movie trailer internship since there is no possibility of growth within the company. It would be purely for experience, or as my ex put it: "fluff". I also got offered an internship with a talent management company that I had to turn down because I accepted the movie trailer internship.

So... I have been offered many internships (YAY! GOOD!), all unpaid (BOO), and I don't have enough time in the week to do them (BOO?) so I think I'm going to tell the movie trailer internship that I can't do it anymore (since they took 2 weeks to get back to me) and have found another position. I have been praying about getting an internship with a talent agency and I have an interview with one so... I'm thinking my prayers are being answered, which means I need to say goodbye to the "fluff" internship, even though I'm really interested in movie trailers. =(

Are you Fucking Kidding me?!

I started to be okay with it. I started to get over it. I vented and got it all out and it made me feel better. I began to think that I was over reacting... AND THEN I FIND OUT SHE'S ONLY 20!? YOU'RE SOON TO BE 27!!! WHAT THE HELL?! You like them younger so they're easier to manipulate and lie to? Jesus! I really thought I was okay with it until I found this out.

*COUPLE HOURS & A CONVO LATER*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!! YOU FUCKING PISS ME OFF!!!! I needed to talk to you about what I was thinking and feeling and then we end up throwing a pity party for you! We end up talking about how you think you ruined Sarah's life and how your life is shit and I, of course, end up going into friend mode and talking to you about it and trying to help you see that it wasn't your fault. THIS CONVO WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE ABOUT YOU! I wanted to tell you off. To be pissed. To get some advice. But No Fucking No! SOMEHOW the convo gets turned around to you! You fucking tricked me into being your friend for an hour. Even if you don't claim that you did, fuck you. You did. Because you knew that I would. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I want to hate you so much but I can't! I want to cut you out of my life. I want to say goodbye. I want to tell you to fuck off, that you hurt the one person who cared for you like a real friend should. The one person who helped you get through the beginning of your divorce. The one who listened and said what needed to be said even if I didn't agree. I sympathize with her more than I do you. And I know that's terrible because I'm suppose to be YOUR friend, but I understand where she is coming from because I've been there. You were her Matt, only she went through with the marriage while I had the guts to back out in time. The more I learn, the more you're like Matt... and that breaks my heart all over again.

I know you want to be friends... And part of me wants that too. But I don't know if it's possible. I don't know if I can be unbias. Because I'll tell you right now I want you and her to fail. I don't want you and her to work out because... because it would hurt. You look nice for her. You put on cologne for her. You only did that for me twice... I don't want you to move on. Not yet. And I want to be bitter and mad but I don't know if I should. I'm so fucking confused about all of this. I feel like if I become your friend so quickly that I'm letting you off the hook too easily. But I feel like if I stay mad, I'll just push you away. Alex and Dave want me to drop you and never talk to you again. And part of me agrees... but part of me doesn't want to let go. I made you promise not to disappear again, and now I want you to stick to the promise, even if it's bad for me.

What was I thinking?

So I keep having dreams about my ex who I haven't talked to in... 2 years. So I read into all these dreams as, "Hey! Maybe I should contact him again!" because when you first wake up in the morning, your mind is running on all cylinders... So I send him a text message using the last phone number I have for him. I pretty much said it was me, that I knew texting him was completely random but my dreams told me too (I'm an idiot), and I would like to reconnect with him if he wanted. I receive a text back saying, "I don't know you leave me alone". Okay... so did I get the wrong number or did I actually get my ex and he wants nothing to do with me? So I sent him a message on fb asking him. LOL I. Am. So. Retarded. I'm just getting tired of these dreams that I keep having of him. You'd think after 3/4 years I would be over him, but apparently NOT. I keep having dreams that he wants to be with me again. Ugh. And then I keep having dreams that my recent ex is trying to sleep with me sister so... that's nice. My head is fucked up. Yay me.

Annoyed rambling!

I have been wanting to talk to you all day and then you go to bed! UGH! I know that you can't really help being sick, but I wanted to hear about your weekend and tell you about my night and you freakin go to bed! That annoyed me so freaking bad!!! I don't think I'm really upset with you so much as I'm upset with myself for being this upset about it! I shouldn't care so much that I can't talk to you. We're not dating anymore, but you're the one I want to talk to and share my day with and I get sad when I can't. I also just realized that I get jealous of your time. When it's not with me, and I don't know what you're doing, I'm wondering who you're with and I'm jealous, which is so incredibly stupid. I feel stupid.