Annoyed rambling!

I have been wanting to talk to you all day and then you go to bed! UGH! I know that you can't really help being sick, but I wanted to hear about your weekend and tell you about my night and you freakin go to bed! That annoyed me so freaking bad!!! I don't think I'm really upset with you so much as I'm upset with myself for being this upset about it! I shouldn't care so much that I can't talk to you. We're not dating anymore, but you're the one I want to talk to and share my day with and I get sad when I can't. I also just realized that I get jealous of your time. When it's not with me, and I don't know what you're doing, I'm wondering who you're with and I'm jealous, which is so incredibly stupid. I feel stupid.